Just a random thought, but what does…exactly make a woman sexy? I’ve been trying to figure that out since I was in high school and all the girls in school suddenly emerged from puberty with a certain air around them that the boys seemed to notice. Whatever it was back then, my little clumsy, socially awkward, goody two shoes, abstinence believing self didn’t have it.
Fast forward a few years or so and I am listening to Rihanna explain her sex appeal to Oprah. Oprah told Rih Rih that she wears her sexuality well, and the singer answered back by basically saying that in the early years of her career she had to fake it to make it. It makes perfect sense to me that she was faking her sexual presence because she was so young
still is young and she looked like a deer caught in the headlights. No shade. I’m just being honest. She used to look like one of those girls that can’t dance, so they count the steps in their heads as they move.
But what is it that makes her and other women like her sexy? Is it the way they walk, talk, or move? Is it the way they dress or how they look at other people? Is it in their eyes? When you look at celebrities like Kim Kardashian, Marilyn Monroe, or Elizabeth Taylor what do you see? They all seem to have been bred for consumption. Whatever that means.
I unfortunately was not bred for consumption. I am still the socially awkward, clumsy, goody two shoes girl I was in high school. Whatever sexy is, I don’t have it! Not one iota of sexy is in this here body. It isn’t that I don’t think someone like me can or deserves to be sexy. I think virgins can be sexy without having sex. It just doesn’t ooze from my pores like it does for everyone else. I have tried to fake it, but I just can’t make it. I am actually okay with that too, even though I would like to know what sexy feels like at least once in my life.
Maybe I should try seducing people with my awkwardness? I mean let’s be real here. Awkwardness is ingrained in my genes. There is no way around that, so I might as well make it work for me. I mean look at Zooey Deschanel. She made a whole career out of being awkward. Maybe I should just stop worrying about this whole sexy thing anyway? I heard a whole bunch of older actresses and women in my life say they didn’t feel sexy until they hit 30 or 40 or 50 even. I am just 25. I suppose I have some time to figure it out.