If you haven’t seen this by now, this is the Lanvin Men advertisement featuring the famed fashion photographers Inez and Vinoodh. Before you get all crazy on me, the last photo is a remake of another I&V; photograph called “Me Kissing Vinoodh (Passionately)” . I think the photographers are beautiful and breathtaking. The thing that makes these photographs so real is that they are actually married. You can see the passion in their love.
I want to find a love like that. I want to find someone who I can work with on a daily basis, communicate creatively, and just be so passionately into each other that it shows without being super cheesy. I’ve never been in a relationship, and even though I know I am really young, I turn 23 on the 22nd of January, I feel like there is a part of me missing out of a lil piece of life. I go on facebook, basically everyday, and see all of my friends getting married, engaged, pregnant, having babies, and finding new relationships.
Even though I am happy for my friends, it still bites. With every couple’s photograph or new wedding album, my heart breaks a little bit each time. I go places and my parent’s friends always ask me if I have a boyfriend because ” You are so beautiful” or “You are so pretty and smart.” I hate to tell them no, or I’m still boyfriend-less, but its true. Then I see these articles and video clips about the lack of Black men, or how hard it is for a Black women to find love and I just feel worse.
I guess what started out as a fashion post has really turned into something more, but I just don’t know how to express, explain, or even try to understand what I must be doing wrong. I think this is one of my most personal and extremely real posts. I hope you don’t mind it, but I just needed to vent.